THE WORST DAY EVER

Last night my husband Chris Prater was out on his street bike for the first time in months.  The police said he went to pass a four wheeler and never hit his breaks before he hit a tree.    He passed away before he could be air lifted to the hospital.   He was only 29.   I am so lost.  Please pray for me, and our children.   They will never know what a great man he is.  Our son will never even have memories.    

Well yesterday went out with a boom,  I was chasing my daughter around our house when out of no were was this very big mud puddle.   Do I need to say it?   Yes people I fell.  My hand is swelled.  My previous broken fingers are huge.  And a monster bruise on my shoulder.  And to add insult to injury, a car went by and laughed, not bothering to hide the fact I was the joke.  

On a more productive note I did revamp my mornting routine.  I am tweeking it now so by Monday I should have a finished product.  I also have been working on the weekly aspect of my SHE cards.   I have decided Flylady has her Zones one for each week.   I know have Zones for each day.  I can clean whatever I feel needs done in my home on that day.  Monday- Friday I left the zone titles and rooms the same,  I just made a list of chores and started zone 1 on Monday ending with zone 5 on Friday.   I am adding the Saturday's my husbands works for any general overall home tasks.  

Now today I was on track up at 4:30.  Earlier than needed thanks to my dear son.   I was flying through my routines and taking breaks to write out my lists, planning on being able to start the begining clean up of all my other time frames on my SHE card dailies, when my Husband shows up unexpected for lunch.  That devoured an hour, one I am glad we got to share.  He is working late trying to catch up bills and put back a little extra for vacation.   As soon as I kissed him good-bye and closed the door I turned around to see the washing machine had over flowed all over the kitchen.  We have an older home so the Laundry room is in with the kitchen.   I turned the water lines off and texted my hubby.  That was an unwanted mess and probably expense.  It ate a good hour and half of my day moving everything to clean up the water and trying to wring out the laundry by hand.  Then finding a good enough make do clothes line.  I had a load in the dryer and the sheets were way to wet to put in the dryer still.

No fear I am staying upbeat.  I am done with my morng routine.  Now at 5:35 at night.   I will catch another episode of Desprerate Housewives on Netflix.  I am up to Season 2 episode 15 if you count the time I have left it playing to finish a task I was in the middle of.   Then it is the start of dinner and some time trying out my new porch swing Chris hung up on the apartment deck last night.  We have a newer one  a frined gave us for the house front porch but the more I look at it the more I like my simple 2 wooden rocking chairs and little green table.   Anyway, I will work hard to finish my Zone lists if nothing else tonight. 

To be honest I have went with out suffecient sleep until I am ready to curl up in a ball and nap for days.  It will be a long weekend, Hubby is on call so will work Saturday and to be honest I have been ready to go anywhere away from home  since Tuesday.      

Good luck everyone.  Hope you have a less stressful night than me.  I am gonna tell you if I did not have all the CHAOS of my family I would be a lost puppy.        

If you know any sites that may have good tips or advice please post a link or email them to me ......Night alll

Hump Day Blues

Since my son has been teething I am getting less sleep than I have in years.....Needless to say I am sitting here typing with one eye open.   I am nodding off to dream land.

The day started out on track.  I got so much off my to do list and my routine was on fire!  Then I just got hit by the sleepy bug.   I do not like this.  There is a sink full of bottles.  My routine is over.  I cannot tell you were I left off or where I should start back.   I really dread days like this, it makes me feel like I am playing catch up all week.  So alll I know to do is hunker down and really focus on getting through my routine and moving my to do's to tomorrow.  

Which means I will be behind on daily, and other chores.  But my house looks like the toybox and  closets threw up and I have bottles form last night.

I need to find a blog planner and a diy planner I can use to help keep me more on task.   I love the SHE box.  It is truely helping track repeating tasks.   I ran out of cards long ago so have been recycling paper.  I am cutting it into 3x5 size and writing on the blank side.    I hope I can give you examples shortly.   

Maybe more positive tomorrow.   I do have a task or two that we all could probably focus on for tomorrow.  One of my MIT is to clean the garage door and windows.   We havent since moving in.  I still need to do my windows but think I will wait till after vacation.   Now  another thing is the linen closet.   For more info check out, theorganizedhousewife.com.           Have fun and I will try to post before and after pics of both.    Would love to see yours.   

As much as I love being able to share my experiences and thoughts, I am still so confussed on how I should be or can be using blogger to post.   I am so unfamialar with the settings and how to work them to my benefit.   

If you cannot tell I am in a very frustrated mood.  And I seem to be taking it out on all.  Coltin turned 7 months old Saturday.  We had a busy weekend.  Went to my husband's father's grave, and a cookout at my sis-in-law.  Took our daughter fourwheeling and went to a civil war re-enactment.  Then I tried to stay up late with Hubby for alone time. Planted a few tomato plants.  And some small home repairs.  And lasst night the baby started teething again.  So no sleep.   I am way behind on my schedule or routine.  

So my biggest concern is cleaning the garage door and windows after my HANDS friend leaves.  She is late.   Then trying to get some paint off the siding out back and water the plants.  I am also wanting to at least get halfway through my mid day routine and work on my evening, before bed and night routines.  I am still using my SHE box and love it.    For example, the card I am on now say Daily in the top left corner. Morning in the middle and 20-30 Min on the right.   All that is written on this card is Work on Blog.   Now the card that starts my box is set up about the same no time it says Rise and Shine!  Get up at 5:00  If you read my morning or mid day routines you wills see most of these cards.  I have made a few changes or moved spots with some.  I have also added some steps.  I have put all the cards I am not getting to in the back.  I have decided that if by the end of the year I am not using them it is time to toss them.   My perfectionist is in an uproar over this.   She made those cards and she knows one day we will need them.   Her name shall be Perfect Peggy!.   Do you have a perfect or slacker alter ego?  My slacker side is Sorry Sammie.   Post how you overcome them and your nicknames for them.      I am interested in your view on perfectionism.   

Family and Personal Goals

Last night I stumbled upon homaking101.com, again.  I really liked this site when I began my long and over researched journey on home and binder sites.   One of the first things she tells us to do is make a list of family and individual goals for all.   I really liked this.  It makes sense.  How can I accomplish anything without a set goal.  You can't have a story without an ending.  

So today I took out a couple sheets of pretty paper left over and wrote out my daughters and my goals for the rest of the year.  And since started so late I am fine carrying them over.  Tonight I will get my husband to sit down and try to make the family and our couple goals as a well couple.  Since it is a long weekend it may be Monday before I share the outcome and my list with you.  

If you have any interesting goals or tips to share please do so. 

As always thanks for the continued support.   I am so glad for each visit.   Please leave a link to your blog or site so I can see your tips and interests.  Love always
Happy Memorial Day.......N

Nexus Blues

Not sure if I told wveryone but, I got my Nexus back monday morning.  I was estatic  Today is Friday and I am already sending it back.  Boo-Hoo.  I am so disappointed.  Asus has had my tablet more than I have.  When it works it is wonderful.  So since this is the third time, why cat they just send me a new one?  I am tired of being out $6.00 every thime this happens and being done a device and what happens when my warrenty ends?   I am loosing sleep over this.

My son got his first tooth and I took thephoto on my Nexus now it will be gone.  That sucks.  Knowing that everything I put time into downloading or adding is gone.  All my work, games, and saved sites.  I am so fed up with this.   I am gonna get off here before I say things not polite.   I hope no one else has such crappy luck with there device.   If so how did you solve the issue?   

thusday chaos

Today started and is ending bad.  Got up late. Hubby left late. Made me late for sons well baby.   He got 4 boosters and a drink as we call it. He also got his first real tooth. Raining hard here.  Haven't got anything done. And now hubby is home. So gonna watch a movie and forget it awhile. Try to pick up tomorrow.     How was your day? Post comments on how you deal with the stresses of life.

Untitled

Not sure what to title this or if I will.  I think I want to take today to do a little get to know me article.  It seems to slip through my mind that all anyone reading this gets is words on the internet.  You do not know me, maybe you have no desire to.  But to bad, you will have to skip this post.
There are areas of my life I will skim over.  If you want to know ,ore you will have to ask.  Other are moments I am proud of many I am would make you very upset and ashamed you ever visited in the first place.  I may have to turn this into a series or overly long story.


So as you know my name is Norma.  I was born early one April morning 32 years ago.  Wow cannot believe I have made it!  Neither of my parents would have been nominated for best parent.  Loving maybe my mother in her own way, but far from nurturing.  Here I will skim some.  Mother is money hungry, alcoholic, who would leave me with my aunt (a great woman) or my father at the drop of a feather.  My father is a drug addict/dealer.  He was very sexually abusive to me and allowed an older cousion to do alot that i have nightmares over still.  See where this is going?

They divorced finally when I was 12.  My mom met my stepdad .  He is my true father, I ,miss him so much.  He passed away of cancer 2 years ago.  Due to my mother we were not on the best terms.  I have regrets.   I ended up pregnant at 15.  Got married and had 2 children.  To get the money my mother let my ex mother in law take custody of them and leave her as guardian.   Enter my start on drugs and a downward life.  

Ended up having 2 more children by the same man. My aunt has them.   Now that is my biggest heartache. Missing those children grow up and knowing how they must feel.  I know how my parents shirt me.

The man I clam to be my husband is in every since of the word but legal.  I cannot afford to get divorcesd from my ex and cannot find him to sign anything.  Chris an I have 2 beautiful children.  I love them but it is bittersweet.  I am off drugs thanks to suboxone.  I am now working on getting off that.

Since the last 26 years of my life were a mess and all my parents taught me are skills I don't like knowing,  I am so wanting to be the best mom and partner to my man.  So I am obsessed with any way to help me.  I tend to find things I like and lose interest fast.  But making list and journaling have been a constant.

Hope this helps with explaining me a little.  Please send or post any questions or suggestions.  Maybe I can get back to my previous talk of home control journal and my schedule.  I am still adjusting my SHE card system. Will keep updated.  Thanks for all the interest you have had in my blog.  One day someone maybe how me how to use it to be more appealing and how to use all the features avaible to me.     See ya all next time.

Tuesday thoughts

Lets talk a little more on the SHE card box.  I love the consecpt of having all the things wrote out and even if just for a certian day, month, or season I can slip it into that slot.  But I am thinking I am over filling some of my things.  This weekend I am going to reorder rewrite and change some of my cards.   I will post some examples of those then.  

My husband finally acknowledged all the work I do last night.  I think he took a look at my box and the fact I did all my chores (or most) and helped with grass cutting made a huge supper and fried him fore potatoes amazed him.  He always said I was lazy. 

I wanted to write more, will try later.  The baby is crying and I cut my leg on the dog chain and am now bleeding again.

Love the 400 views.  Please give me some topics or feedback so I can make this easier.

back in the saddle

Sorry for the disapperarance.  I have been so busy here and trying out a new schedule routine.  I forgot to write.   I will do better.   I have been trying out the SHE card system and have to say so far great!  and it will save alot of room in my binder.   I am so excited!

I do beleive we will be going on vacaation this year.  We had talked about staying home, but my sis-in-law is taking my niece for for bday to Splash Country in Tennessee and we will go for that with them and probably stay back for 2 days in Dollywood.   I will give full details when they are concrete.
Were and what do you do on your vacations?  Do you go with the flow or like to plan to the minute?  And what is your packing stye?  Do you have a list or do you have a site with a good list for packing?  This will be the first vacation with a baby under 1  He will be almost 8 months so I am nervous. 

Just a fast note.

Hopefully I will be on time a little better tomorrow.  But the baby is teething and not happy and I have my friend from HANDS on her way so will get a good post off this week please be patient with me   Thanks for the 330 readers....

My Favorite Mothr's Day

this has been one of my favorite, if not my favorite Mother's Day!  It all started Saturday.  We were suppose to take the kids to my sis-in-law but hubby changed his mind.  I have had 2 kids everyday and night for 6 months!!  I almost beat him to pulp.  LOl  We ended up going to Musle on Main and the Burnout in town.  We met up with my sis-in-law and went to a Mexican resturant after.  On the way out Hubby tells her just to take the kiddos.   YEAH!!!!!!  I really jumped for joy.   We went to Wal-mart for the groceries and neccesities.  After the hour drive home and putting away 2 grocery carts of stuff it was 5A.M. 

Exhausted, I feel in bed beside my hubby for the first time since Valentines Day.   I slept so good.  Then Sunday began at 10:30 A.M.  I haven't slept that late in a year.  I cleaned out my daughter's closet.  Hubby done some pest control.  Somehow spiders and ants think this is their home.  After we spent 3 hours cleaning out the other half of the small garage.  There is still the previous owners junk stuck everywhere.  They must have sold us the house in Feburary (My Valentine's Present)  and just left all they owned.  I mean even wet clothes in washer/dryer,  dishes in sink, cabinet and closets packed and both garages and both sheds.   And they were not big on cleaning

So when we were done we looked like coal miners.  We washed off, rode the four-wheeler (ATV) and went to pick up the kids.  I swear a stranger took over my daughter she is so nice and well behaved now.    Hubs made Lasagana.  And bathed the kids.   

This is one for the memory book for sure.   The BEST PRESENT, right behind my kids, husband, and our house.    Hope everyone else had as good a day.

Tomorrow I will do my best to post some more of my routines:  I am behind as always.  But I am sticking with my Body Electric and Bootcamp 14.   I weighed myself at Wal-mart 140!   I weighed 142 when had my son.  I am normally 120-125.  I wanted to cry.    I so need to learn eating control.  

Friday Finally Here!!

Yesterday ended better than it began.   Oh wait let me update on morning routine.  I am now finished with it at 2:25 .  But I woke up late and my son is teething bad...... 
Okay back to Yesterday,  hubby and the work crew came home early and ran new cable and internet lines all through the house.  So I did not get anything done.  It is okay because we went to a small restaurant close by for supper and took the kids to the park and thankfully there was a girl my daughters age to play with.  We then got a few groceries and back home.
Now back at home and the kids fast asleep, I began reading my husband a paper I found about Picies, his sign.  It was dead on!  We had a good laugh.
Today we both got up late so I feel good to be this far along.   Monday I will post my Afternoon Routine,  well my outline I haven't got there yet.  I am doing a little better about internet and did some schooling with my daughter.  Sorry to cut this short but my son is howling.  Pray his tooth comes in soon so he and mommy can see some relief........Happy Mothers Day  to alll

depression Be Gone

How the hell do I snap out of this?  I started a text arurement wtih my husband today while he was at work!  What if he had fell off one of the power poles he climbs or been driving,  and?....You get the picture.  My daughter is still bed wetting nad I am so down I have let my routines be lost to a messy home. 

Today I have cried myself into a headache..  My predictable easy days have been relpaced by chaos.  I am swearing off the internet and getting off my sorry ass.   Time to change my life.  I am not going down this road of CHAOS.  But then it hits me, no one will ever see it and I never get away from it and it will happen again so why bother?  For half my calm self back that is why.   I want to make a challenge out of this.  Lets post our morning routine and give a titme we would like to have it finished by and for the next week till Friday we will work on that!  So here goes since it is 1:40 p.m and I am at the end of my morning list tomorrow my goal will be to be finished with it by 1p.m.  and then I will move up from there and then when I can complete it by 10a.m. I will add in the rest...

Don't get me wrong, the kids will still bath, and dinner will be cooked.  But I will not keep this up.   I am also going to start standing up for what I need in this relationship with my husband..  I am not his mom or anyone else he wants to compare me to.  I am ME  and damn it,  I will start meeting some of my own life goals!  I just don't know if we will make it through this....  We are so close and agree on so many things but in the major life decissions we are both at different places with different goals and dreams.   How can I make it work so we stay together and not be misserable?

UPDATE:  I am also frustrated on how a 4 yr old with a good track record of dry nights suddenly goes beserk she wet her bed the couch and recliner last night.  MY washer is getting used if nothing else.   I believe it is a case of jealous and her dad and I having so much trouble right now.  Hope life does a 180 soon. 

My oh My what a week!

Update:  No accidents for my daughter yesterday, but last night she was up until 2a.m. nd between then and 5a.m. when I got back up to have a few minutes alone she wet the bed.  I got hateful with my husband last night.  I snapped something about waking me up just to turn a light off and if he wanted to stay up till midnight that he could.  All I wanted was to sleep when I could. So after Kenzie not sleeping good and the baby teething and getting a head cold and crying on and off all night, he woke up sparring for a fight. 

Dont like when that happens at all.   I feel like I can't say anything back because what if he gets hurt or worse.  And I would automattically feel blamed for being the reason he is distracted.  It has taken 5 years for me to learn to hold my tounge, nod my head, and agree. 

So this morning Yes I shrink all your work shirts but no one eles?  How when we use the same washer, dryer, and detergent?  I use Purex  not to cheap but not the "Good Stuff"   I am a Gain fan.  Somehow I also ruin his shirts.  He wears the same shirt 2-3 days especially in the winter when he has coveralls on.  So when he is in his shirt, and gets something on it and doesnt wash it for 3 or more days and doesnt put it where I can see the stain to treat it,  I dont have much to do.  I use Goop hand cleaner from the Dollar Tree on stains.  Works good if it is fresh. 

But this is my favorite!  I purposelly wake the kids up so HE can't sleep!!  HA HA  That is only hurting me.  He grumbles and is straight back out.  

One of the things I have been interested in is the Proverbs31 woman/wife.  I dont think I can really meet all those goals  But  I would like to find out more.     But not much on how or where to begin.  

What is going on?

Yeah so any of you who have seen my Morning Routine know that I exercise with Body Electric on the KET/PBS channel, Yesterday I entered to win BootCamp14 from No Excuses with John Roche.  Any Flybabies out there have heard of him.  I actually won one of the 100 giveaway spots!!  So this morning I went through the email and saved what needed to use on the computer and wrote out what I thought would benefit me the most on paper.   I also completed the Monday workout and will try the Tuesday when it airs.  The perfectionist in me will not let me start where I am.  Thanks to the boot camp I also have my body measurements and am excited to go....

  When I told my husband all excited wanting to ask him to join me, I got a hateful all that will get you is a virus I am not fooling with it.  I am noticing lately he is rude to me unless he wants something and always puts down or dismisses my ideas or anything I mention wanting to try or accomplish. 

So now I have that added to the fact I feel like a failure stuck at 32.  My daughter wet the bed again last night.  But she is working with me on manners and listening, and will until her dad gets home.  Then all bets are off.  When trying to get her to get ready for bed last night, (brush teeth, floss, potty, and brush hair),  I really screamed at her!!!  Very loud, Very in her face.  Oh how fast I was to regret it and feel shame.  To late to take it back.  She hit me after yelling and fighting me for 10 minutes.  I broke.  Hubby isn't much help.  I think he is afraid of hurting her feelings or just wasn't disciplined and now he doesn't know how.

He says he wants her to do better than us.  All I see is her acting and being like I was.  I Do No under no circumstances want that.  How to nip this in the butt now?  I have been reading up on it.  I do not see how it will work if I am the only one trying to make a change.  

Now when Hubby came home, he caught Kenzie squatting pants and undies down in the babies room taking a good ol pee!  He laughs and tells me to clean it up.  Nothing said or done.  I spent the next 25 min trying to get her to talk to me about it.  

Am I crazy to try?  How do I deal with this?  And can anyone tell me how to get Super Nanny 911? 

On a happier note, I will try to post my After Lunch/Afternoon Routine this week....I finally got the computer wires tamed.  It was a jungle behind my desk.  I also almost have all that I want from the email I mentioned yesterday. 

Truly I feel blessed and special so many have stopped by to read my blog.  But I am beginning to feel alone on here also..  I ask for help and try to give what I have to offer.  Isn't much, I know I am a mess right now.  But for this to work just like my marriage it needs to be a sharing relationship.  I need to here from all of you.  Questions how to help you, how to make this better for you.  I also NEED to see responses to my questions.  I know I am not alone in this.  To many SAHMs out there.  So lest get some feedback and interaction going.  It will do both of us good.  Communication is the key to all relatioships. 

Again thanks to the 230 for stopping in.....Glad I got your attention, now you have mine.  Tell or ask anything.  
Love Always......................................N

Monday Maddness and Wet Nights

Where to start?  I guess I should go back to how this turned into a Mad Monday.   My 4 year old daughter has been potty trained since she was 20 months old.  She never wore pull ups or goodnites.  Went straight to painties one day and never looked back.  Yeah so easy!  Never had an accident after that unless she was sick, ex.  phuenomonia, bronchithis, or UTI.  Since Tuesday last week she has been wetting the bed once or twice a night.  Also day time accidents.  Never been a problem, like I said.  And the few times before this happened she was totally embarassed and cried.  Begged not to tell on her.  This is different.  She is vaugely saying she is burning and the potty hurts her?  But only after prompting.  If left for her to answer she simply said she forgot, couldn't make it, or she didn't remember.  

Now onto today.  While my husband was out on call Sunday, I stumbled onto an email from Taylor Hewlett.  She is on Youtube.com  I had prevously asked about her Home Management Binder Pages.  In response she sent me copies of some of her pages she had made.  Due to the lack of ink for the printer the email was saved to a folder and forgotten.  Since on my quest to update, use it or move it or lose it, binder Redo, I decided most of what she sent I could just write out for now.  In the mix she sent a copy of her Household Rules.  I have to say I loved it.  Simple and things I need to work on with my family.  So I wrote out the ones that applied to my family and read it to everyone.  This morning after breakfast I re-read it to my daughter.  She repeated it back almost word for word with her take on what it means.  Easy as Pie?  I thought But no. 

After wetting the couch were she fell asleep last night, and Monday a hair wash day anyway, when I told her to let me wash her hair it turned into a 4 hour fight.  Ended with me putting her clothes on and her crying over a picture of us at the Titanic in Tennessee on vacation last year.  Told me she wanted to be a baby or go back to just us 3.  NO BABY!

I am totally unprepaired for this and do not know anyone to ask for help.  My sis-in-law only has one girl.  Could the bed wetting be a form of rebellion?  And how do I make her feel more importat and show her I still love her?  I always try to include her.  But we butt heads alot.  Over telling me NO, hitting, and not PUPA of toys.  I am lost and do not what my relationship with my daughter to end badly.   I am going to stick to play time and chores.  And hopefully with adding The Rules and really using Time Out some things will improve.  Please help salvage my relationship with my girl before it is to late.      Asking-on hands and knees please give advise......My tears are still rolling down my cheek.

After Breakfast/Mid Day Routine

Okay girls (and guys?)  here it is my Mid Day Routine and today my goal is to get halfway through it.  I got a late start.  Depressed yesterday and couldn't sleep last night watched late night tv.  Okay below is the draft of my Mid Day Routine:

• Clean up breakfast dishes
• Throw out scraps
• Keagles
• Load the Dishwasher (or wash dishes in my case)
• Shine the sink
• Lotion Hands
• Unload the dishes
• Towel dry dishes
• Put up Dishes
• Wipe off Kitchen counters
• Thaw anything needed for dinner
• 5 minute pick up
• Switch laundry
• Room time/Pla alone 30-45 minutes (more for my daughter for now)
• Make calls
• 15 minutes daily cleaning mission (flylady.net)
• 15 minutes weekly cleaning assignment (will go into more detail when post my weekly lists)
• Play together (ex. reading time, hippo tent or fort, boredom busters form abowlfulloflemons.com?, list of ideas I am making)
• Wash and lotion hands
• Fix lunch - Baby get a bottle and cereal by 12:00 p.m. (i wish)
• Change baby's diaper
• Set the kitchen table
• Feed the family  - including yourself
• Drink Juice (lised for all)
• Kenzie chores - Kids's challenge from flylady
• Daily Reminder (flylady)
• Put pop, water, juice, tea in refrigerator
• 4 week declutter challenge (will find link)
• Weekly Celaning checklist (based on flylady will post later)
• Get mail and newspaper - scan for books on the way trash junk
• Daily pick up
• Feed and water the critters (cat and dog- daughter want a hamster)
• Laundry
• Wipe out Bathroom sink
• 2 Minute Hot Spot (Flylady idea)
• Morning Meditation
• Kids Bible Study (usually read children's bible working on adding goodmorninggirls.com study)
• Drink water (listed for all)
• Zone work for 15 minutes (flylady)
• clean Kitchen table
• Serenity prayer, A prayer for patience, Guildpost
• Negative Voice Tracker (From Flylady- I write down negetive/bad thoughts and turn into a positive)
• A-F Letter find with Kenzie
• Vlog- youtube.com
• Pair and line all shoes at entryways (try to keep all shoes but hubby's work boots in rooms)
• Clean under Living room recliner
• Dust
• Clean all glass in the house
• 5 minute room resuce
• Pick up Living room and vacuum
• Mop the kitchen floor
• Play kitchen with kds
• Take a break
• Skim a magazine
• Reboot laundry
• 2 minute hot spot
• 30 minute room resuce
• Clear desk
• File/Put away papers
• FlyLady FAQ's if need to know something
• 13 ways to tell husband you love him (for reminder to tell him and inspiration on how to)
• Wipe off outside table
• Kenzie watch TV
• Baby Steps (flylady)
• Ride Bicycles
• Run/Race/Tag with Kids
• Coltin (baby) nap
• 10 minutes lift weights
• Dust all furniture and window sills

I have not gotten all the way yet. Like i said it is alot and may need adjusting.  This is just an idea and some tasks get completed in other steps but just in case forgotten or missed, I will get to it again.  Also I do mop the kitchen alot it is a high traffic area.  I will update when get all the way through.  Next I will try to get my After Lunch or Afternoon Routine up.    Good luck and please share your daily routines, weekly etc.  Or just comment or give advice I can use .   

Thanks to the 207 views.   Now lets try to make it 220!  Hope you all keep comming back.....Bless you and again I am excited to see you back. 

Depressed Thrusday

It is almost 6p.m. here and unlike normal I am just not getting to post anything.  Somehow we all got up early, and I am no were near done with my morning routine.  But tomorrow I do want to post my Mid Day Routine.  I ended up sleeping all evening.  I just felt so overwhelmed for no reason.  I had made some progress on my household filing.  I will show my outline later.  I was ahead of schedule and then boom like a brick wall, DEPRESSED. The weight of the world was on my shoulders and I didn't care about anything but getting away from it.  I have been struggling with these feelings again on and off since we got moved in.  Could it be postpartum?

We even had appointments since today was Errand Day.  I never even bothered to call and change them.  How do I climb out of this?  I really want help without having to deal with medicine.  I just dont have any support to help me.  I feel stuck.  Like I am not going anywhere.  All the problems I had 7 years ago (except drugs)  I have now.  Really weighs me down.  And I know Chris loves and cares for me but he doesn't do things in a productive order alot.  


Sorry about that rant!  On a more positive note I have gotten 198 views!!!  Wow I love that I truely needed to know someone out there wanted to read any of my ramblings.  Please start leaving me some comments and any helpful tips etc. you have.  If you can't tell I need the encouragement in a strong way. Just mainly the regular SAHM  drama....LOL  Thanks to everyone for stopping enouth to read my posts.    I will get up and get to my blog earlier tomorrow...Seeing so many viewers has helped inspire me to continue on with this.....Love to all  N

Day after my birthday - May 1st A New Month

Yesterday I started a post as I tried to work on salvaging my day.  While I was getting the baby to sleep, my so courious daughter combined, hand sainitizer, toothpaste, denture cleaner, mouthwash, Suave mouse, and hand soap!  There was such a mess and it took her less than 5 minutes.  She told me she was pooping.   Then for the second time in 2 weeks she got stuck in her doll highchair witih one of Coltin's bibs on.  I laid him on the bed to try to pry her out,  he looks at her and smiles, she knocks him off the bed!  She thought he was laughing at her.   What am I to do with her?  After that I just stopped trying to document my day.

But I did make tacos for supper and my own butter chocolate cake with vanilla icing (I did not pick)  And my wonderful husband came home with a beautiful ankle bracelet and letter he wrote.  He took his lunch and made a trip just to get that for me.  He is not good at suprises.  He always tells on his self.  But I must say I was supprised....  And the day ended with hubby seeing me changing into my gown (alone time after children went to sleep), asking me "Are you still doing your exercises?  I never noticed it before.  I thought you were parinoid but, you have put on a couple of pounds"  Tears swelled up automatically.  I only weigh 130-135 pounds.  But I used to weigh 115 or less.  So I am struggling with not eating everything all day long.  It is a loosing  battle I now see.   

All in all I had a nice day.  A few messes I left out, like the lipstick and the strawberries Oh and Chris tied the barbie car onto Kenzie's barbie jeep (Powerwheel)  and apparently I let her wrap it around the axel.  It is less than a month old and we paid close to $300.00 for it.  So today after the battery is charged I am hoping it is okay.  I got a good talking to about that.  I knew that would happen.  But oh well if itworks it is okay.   

Now on to the New Month:  I am trying so hard to have a more positive, less complaining, patienet attitude.   Fingers crossed and need many prayers.   So I got up at 6:14 a.m. and started my day late but somehow I am not to far behind.    Now to get my lazy, fat butt up and get a move on.....

Thanks to everyone for reading my thoughts and I hope you keep reading.  I really need your feedback on how I am doing.  I want to see commments, emails, or links to your sites.   Any helpful hints or anything else is welcome......  Great day to all!!!!!!!!!  N